Today, my clssmate--Stacy, who also from HELP University College invited me to Jesmond Parish Church to having dinner. She said it is quite fun there n the food is very delicious n also is a good place to meet international friend. Yes, I love to meet more different nationally friend. So I skip my rock climbing n attend the dinner with Stacy. hehe...Quite looking forward to, because I love delicious food n meet friend. Yeah!!! We met at 7.20 pm in front of her hostel. But when I arrived her hostel, I am quite shocked why the 3 bitches also waiting there. I didn't blame anyone, even Stacy. I just blame myself why I didn't ask properly. I should ask, I must ask. If not, I won't have this embarrass moment n situation. Luckily, I have invited Cami (The China girl that I met here). If not, I am going to join them & be quiet & upset whole night. However, I just ignore them n walked in front of them with Cami. After arrived to the church, Cami & I also didn't sat together with them (coz just left 1 seat). So we just sat at the table in front of them. Cami said it is not really good that I treat them like that because it is very rude n I also known them long time ago. I just told her I don't care. I don't need them, why should I have to force myself to do the thing that I don't like. Fuck them...Even a smile, I also not willing to give them. If they really treat us as friend, they should ask us to sit together, but they didn't said a word.
Cami won't understand my feeling n situation, coz she doesn't know everything between us. At that moment, I just want to talk with Kin Fong. I knew is 3.30 am in the midnight, but I just want to vent out all of my feeling. I just want to say something n let someone agree with me. Unfortunately, we're staying in the different time zone. So sad...
Luckily, I really have met some new nice friends from there. Although they all are Chinese, at least they are sincerely want to be my friend. N they are quite nice actually, because one of the guy sent me back. Even we have past through his flat, he also be very gentleman n sent me back to my flat. Thank a lot, my friend!
I am different now. Last time, I will try to be friend with them, now I won't. Because I want to make myself happy n why I want to do something that make me unhappy. U can say I am selfish, but who care about what u think about me. If they can be selfish, me either.
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